lately...

it's been quite a long time. i've been vascilating back and forth between posting and not posting. keeping a blog and not keeping a blog. it dawned on me that i have this blog or, that i created it as an outlet for my own creativity and to share whatever comes to mind. speaking of which, i love this quote i would see every week at my kids school, "imagination holds the key to overcoming adversity". to me it says: be creative. use your imagination to get thru your challenges. for me that means to be inspired and create. inspiration.

what moves and motivates me to create is my being inspired. i have to see something - either in my head or in front of me. i have to have a vision, so to speak. at the dentist the other day i sat waiting. i picked up a style magazine and remembered how in high school i would feel so motivated and inspired as i scanned over the pages of my "seventeen" magazines. i got that old feeling again as i sat there. to me, i must feel inspired to get myself going. and then when that spark is lit, a fire goes off inside me. i miss those sparks of inspiration and my mojo for creativity. i don't know where they went to, but i feel so lost without them. my life has meaning when i can create something.

i think i'd like to make a place of my own. a space in our home that is my refuge ~ where i can be inspired and create and use my imagination to feel peace. i think i'm gonna make my craft closet my "creativity cave". needless to say i don't need a particular space to be or feel inspired. i just feel the need to be inspired every day, in all i do and everywhere i go. by stopping to smell the roses, and listening and hearing ~ a passion releases inside me. by nature i am a passionate person. i put my soul into life. i am in the process of searching for my soul. i keep losing it.

so i think i'm gonna make an "A B C's of creativity" piece of art for my space first. its a fine balance between family, self, and others. leaning to much to one can be costly. in my creativity i am also searching for my own balance. i hope i find it. i seem to have lost that too...

yesterday i got a package in the mail. it was the latest book out by rachel ashwell, that i pre-ordered a bit ago. and it truly was inspirational.