Time for me

...to clean up my act a bit. after i wrote my last post i went thru out the day thinking about how i said what i said. so i have a potty mouth and sometimes push my boundaries out. i think i could have toned it way down and believe i need to take it down a notch when it comes to expressing myself. sometimes i think the more casual i am with my words and opinions and ideas - the more de-sensitized i become til to a point i'm not fazed by what i think or say...and...i don't like that because in the moments that i reflect on who i am or who i want to be or how i should be, i can see i let me guard down way too much and lower my standards to a place that i'm not so comfortable with. i hate to think i can be offensive to anyone. i hate to think i make anyone cringe or feel uncomfortable. there are certain people i hold in certain places and if they said some of the things that i do i think i'd cringe. i don't think i'd be cringing because i was being judgemental and offended but because i'm drawn to certain people for how they make me feel and perhaps because they make me want to be a better person and that i look up to them. i love people that are real but i think we can be real by carefully and mindfully choosing our words and by being sensitive to others feelings and how we might make them feel. i'm a big believer in "not" trifling with sacred things.
so...with reference to my last post...how others are real and express themselves may be entertaining to me but how i in turn relay that kind of humor may not always be funny and/or entertaining to others - simply because others standards may be higher than my own. and, i have so much growing up to do! also, i really gotta tone down my own mouth. and, many times i say things and say i don't care what others think. well, i should and i'm gonna start thinking about what others think. so i hope i didn't offend anyone with what i said and in the way i said it. i'd like to be remembered as more of a lady and not a sailor!