so last MOTHERS DAY was ian's 1st as bishop. their idea for a gift for the women was a 2 inch potted plant. really now. i was a little surprised or shall i say "annoyed" that i wasn't getting chocolate. well i decided that moment that "next" year i was in charge!!! soooo....as of a couple of days ago i still didn't know what the heck i was gonna put together for some 100 plus women!!!!! why do i do this to myself?? i went to a million stores for inspiration. then i was at party city for cinco de mayo stuff and came across this mini take out box - pink with white dots. i had it!!! fill em' with trader joes "french" truffles and add a ribbon with a lovely poem. of course i spent forever looking for thee perfect poem. not too sappy, corny, too directed at motherhood, or sounding like a kid wrote it. it is old and i call it a "vintage poem". look it up on google. it's called "Gods helpers".so i got the candy, boxes, ribbon, liner, pretty paper, and sat down for half the day putting them together. with some help from the family of course. i even said to them that we should do this together every mother's day. you see, when i am creating, i am happy. i loved doing this. really.
every mother's day that i have been a mommy i always said to myself "this is my day to show just how much i love them and to be the best mommy i can be". when they were just little i would always buy a new book about mommy's and read it to them and give up my anal hang ups for a day.
i don't buy a new book anymore but i still try to give up my hangups for a day. i love that they get up early to make me my special breakfast in bed. i love that they are sooo excited to give me the "special" gifts they made at school. i love those gifts more than ANYTHING they would ever pick out in the stores. the gifts they make can not be bought for any price and i look forward all year to see what their little hands have created. i always cry and they know that i will be emotional. i am so predictable!
tonight as i was folding laundry i looked at evan's little t shirt and socks and undies and thought to myself "suzy just treasure this time...it will end all too soon". i realized that one day their clothes won't be little. that one day i would be folding all adult size clothes and i almost couldn't bare the thought! it made me enjoy folding and looking at his dirty, stained, and torn clothes. one day it just won't be this way. one day they will all be big people. one day they won't be so innocent. one day they won't ask me for help anymore. one day they won't crawl onto my lap anymore. one day they won't even be able to jump onto my back and ask me for a piggy back ride. the tears flow. i can't imagine this. i want them to stay little. i love their little hands. i love making their meals and working in their classes. i love seeing them perform and seeing thier little kid handwriting. i love it when i'm cleaning their rooms and find their treasures and hidden candy wrappers under their pillow. i just love being their mom. i know they can't stay little forever. i know that one day they each will leave and my nest will be empty. until that day i will love doing their laundry, washing their dishes, making their meals, being their taxi driver, helping with homework, cleaning their rooms, and taking family vacations. i just love every day that i get to be their MOMMY. to me...every day is mother's day.
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