IAN, YOU ROCK MY WORLD! HAPPY 15TH ANNIVERSARY LOVER BOY...

...so this is us 15 years ago today. not the best "photo of a photo" but i love his happy face here.
another bad "photo of a photo" but this dates us!!! i look like shakakon and he looks like kirk cobain of nirvana. this is our engagement photo - i loved, loved his long hair!

o.k. so i look a lil' hammered - i was - we were camping!!! love his smile.

oh the life at the beach. maybe one day we'll have a home there...but probably not...

ian and i met here in pasadena in the singles ward. he asked me out on our first date by sending me flowers. we went out to the west side for dinner, to a comedy place in hollywood that was sooo crude and i was sooo embarresed cause the comedian was talking about "vagina's" (hate that word) and i was mortified...him too...we left so fast!!! then he drove me to the beach, no kissing, then we drove all over muholand drive - i can't spell that - and then home at 4am. i was so tired but i liked him and i had to teach a lesson at church at 9am. when we hugged goodbye i thought to myself "oh what the hell i'm just gonna be forward and kiss him"...and we made-out for 3 hours on the stairwell. oh, those were the days. if only he was satisfied with just "making out" now!!!!!

we dated for over 2 years and had a short 2 month engagement. that practically killed me! our wedding day was beautiful. the reception was at a friends home - outside - yes, it was freezing! what were we thinking?! later that night...that house half burned down. yes, it was our fault. no, they didn't hate us!

we went to kauai for our honeymoon and it was soooo beautiful. condo on the shore. we had a blast and were there for 'Christmas' too. there were lesbians smoking pot next to us, the whole time. i guess it's better than hearing them have sex, right?

these past 15 years have been bliss. i won't lie and say they haven't been hard - there have been plenty of hard days, long days, lonely days, sad days, mad days, funny days, and days that we didn't want to end. ian is my perfect match. no other man anywhere could handle me and deal with me as ian does and he does so, lovingly and with sooo much patience! i don't think he has ever been mad at me, oh, except for the time i threw a cast iron pan at him.

he knows how to make me laugh when i'm mad, angry, evil, hostile, stubborn, and just plain difficult! he always forgives, embraces, engages, and shows affection. he tells me there's no one else for him. i KNOW there's no one else for me! he places no demands on me... well....o.k., maybe only one - but that's to be sexpected...oops, i mean, expected.

i am enjoying the moment with him. i look forward to growing older with ian and watching together as our kids take leaps off into life - graduations, college, missions, marriage, grandchildren, retirement, more vacations!!! i hope we live to see eachother live into a ripe old age and that we will still always joke and laugh together. i hope we can enjoy good health and do fun things always. i hope he'll always know how much i love him and can't live without him. i hope he thinks of me when he's gone as much as i think of him when he's gone. i hope i never have to see him suffer. i hope i die before he does so i don't have to be without him in this life. i hope our love will continue to grow and never stand still.

oh ian...i love you, i love you, i love you...always and forever.

songs of the day: "one" by U2 and "more than this" by roxy music and the one i really love and that i think is so sexy is "i belong to you" by lenny kravitz and if he were to dedicate a song to me it would be "you got lucky babe" by tom petty!