I AM

i am laying in bed today. pretending to still be sick. enjoying the sound of the rain and it's beautiful scent. i am listening to michael jackson playing loudly from the front room. evan's favorite. i am eating crepes in bed. my girl made them for me with the generous help of daddy and brothers. crepes are one of my favorite! i am a california girl ~ thru and thru. i am still in love with paris and london. i am hoping ian will take us there again. i am a dreamer. i am also a very passionate person. i am creative too. i am so half mexican. i am joyful when i am baking. i am so happy when i have a project going on. i am in love with a beautiful garden. i left part of my heart in thee most lovely garden in paris. i am still in love with my groom. i love my small cottage. i am best friends with my siblings. i am the oldest child. i am a fan of jane austen. i am an even bigger fan of yard sales and junk stores. i am in love with white. i am shabby. i am chic. i am most confortable in jeans, a "t", and cowboy boots. i am always window shopping online. i am a fan of etsy. i am not very patient. i am a cry~baby. i am a mormon girl. i am a housekeeper. i am still in love with the color purple. i am planning two bathroom remodels. i am obsessed with angel art. maybe not obsessed. i am curly haired. i am happy when i wear perfume and earrings. i am so glad i live in pasadena. i am especially grateful that our family enjoys good health. truly. our lives could be pained with disease. i am mindful that i don't know what the future brings, but for now...i am so grateful. i am aware that i am so lucky to have my sight, hearing and can run. i am still a u2 fan. i am listening to "possession" by sarah mclachlan right now which i totally love. i am hoping to travel more as a family. i am not ready to die any time soon. i am a huge fan of home cooked meals. i am publically admitting that i snore. i am trying to not eat sugar on a daily basis. i am really serious about losing 8 pounds this year so i can be back down to my pre-baby evan weight. i am actually enjoying going to the gym. i am also proud to say that i enjoy camping. i am blessed with the bestest friends in the world. i am a proud mommy. i am lonely without music. i am gonna cry my heart out when the kids are gone. really. so...i am trying to treasure these most beloved years of their childhood. i am glad Christmas is over. but, i am still post Christmas shopping and finding some fun things. i am always looking at crown items online. i am at peace when surrounded by the color blue. i am now listening to "fragile" by sting and imagining i am in bali. i am happy when i am helping someone. i am kinda scared of the dark. i am also afraid of burning to death or being drowned or suffocated. aweful, i know. i am really not morbid, just fearful. i am most fearful of someone abducting one of my kids ~ a mother's worst reaccuring nightmare. i am going to change the tone now... i am a blog stalker. i am predictable. i am a fan of great photography. i am the owner of a new camera. i am currently looking for linen fabric with metallic threading in it. i am wishing i knew how to sew better. i am a dog lover. i am drinking horchata right now. it's my fav. i am not always sure what to do with myself when i am alone ~ but i do love to spend hours at borders books. i am never caught without toenail polish. i am now listening to "white flag" by dido. love it too. i am most content when i am working in the garden or reading with my kids. i am also happy when i am driving in the car alone with the music up loud and the sunroof open. oh, i am also most inspired when i am running or taking long walks, alone. i am always de-cluttering. i am so blessed with loving, wonderful parents. i am also wondering if i mentioned how much i love my husband. i am thrilled to live near vromans. i am not a big fan of disneyland. i am grumpy when i am hungry. i am not fun to be around if i am sleep deprived. i am a homebody. i am not into sports. i am going thru peri-menopause. i am getting older. i am proud of it. i am hoping to age gracefully. i am not going to go grey. i am going to always dye my hair, like the italians. i am never gonna get fake body parts. i am not gonna have a facelift either. i am happy with who i am. i am 43 today. today i am the birthday girl. i am suzy tervet and i am wearing a birthday crown!