to everything there is a season...

and tis' the season to lose some weight...

i started the new year off with the following idea:

"TO BE OR NOT TO BE..."

...CONTENT.

that is the question for the beginning of this new year. so to what extent will i be content? i'm pretty sure that the answer for me is...NEVER!

now, i'm not talking from a worldly/material sense, but from the stand point also of who i am and what i am made of. and also - an issue i have with this "40" something body.

now that was my first idea for the beginning of a new year. to learn to be and remain content. then i kinda modified to the following word:

MODERATION

well maybe if i just take life and eat my food in moderation, then i will feel no guilt or have to justify why or what. just do things moderately, like...not over exercising to compensate for my over eating, eat chocolate like fine cheese and not like its the last bit of "fix" to help me cope, eat equally from all of the food groups and not just from the one entitled "bread", all day..., shop for things i need - realistically as opposed to shopping for things i think i need - but really they're things i just totally want, sleep - get a good 7 hours in contrast to my sporadic 3 hours one night 11 the next, and so on...you folks catch my drift...just live my life moderately.

and now my current word...

"COMMITMENT"

so i know how to make a lot of promises, to myself and to others and many times i fail to keep those promises. one in particular is diet. another is exercise. another is yard work. another is living within our financial means. another is not shopping in all my free time. another is...again...you catch my drift.

and i don't know what my point is. except that i got on the scale at the gym this morning and i was not happy. so...i have made a commitment to myself that by next monday i WILL HAVE LOST 5 pounds or more. i make this public because by doing so i will have this idea in my head that i really have to stick to it! so my plan is to go to the gym every morning and run every night. not eat sugar, breads, and little dairy. i believe i am going to starve. i believe i may just lose 5 pounds. i believe i already screwed up by not running tonight but i had to be in 3 places at the same time. oh ya...moderation. i will not reveal my weight but i will reveal if i reach my goal next monday. oh my gosh...I AM SO FREAKIN' HUNGRY RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!